Something happened today. Something that does not normally overtake me like it did this morning. I cried. Yes, my 9 1\/2 month pregnant self cried. Shocker. While most people may assume that pregnant chicks walk around an emotional mess, I like to think that I hold myself together pretty well. I\u2019m not a crier. One of the many benefits of working out throughout pregnancy is how much is keeps the \u201ccrazy\u201d hormones a little less crazy, and more stable. I really don\u2019t experience tons of mood swings, although lets face it, all women have their moments. However this morning was the first time I really felt myself go. It actually reminded me a lot of my first pregnancy at a very similar point where I had to pull over into a parking lot with my mom and cry about not having diapers yet. Obviously something to cry over. Later that night she was able to poke fun at me for it, because yes I was on my emotional rollercoaster and didn\u2019t mind laughing at myself.<\/span><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t like to complain or play the \u201cvictim mom\u201d, but I\u2019m going to right now. Because I cried. This morning was one of those mornings that I just wanted this baby out. I wanted to hear we\u2019re nearing the end and I won\u2019t have to waddle around or struggle to bend down anymore with hips that I\u2019m almost positive would qualify for a replacement. The morning began with a very whiney, cranky and uncomfortable 5 year old not able to deal with his allergies, a never ending battle every morning. Between getting nose spray in him, anti-itch cream on his dry skin and taking his antihistamine medication, it\u2019s a frustrating battle for everyone involved. It\u2019s a split between frustration with his crankiness over it and my heart breaking because I do everything I can and it only seems to work half the time. Then there\u2019s my 2 year old who just likes to yell at me when he doesn\u2019t get his own way. This included not being able to run around the street barefoot because the bus was late for my older one. Oh the meltdowns! It was a mess. Mornings like these feel like you\u2019re just being yelled at nonstop by your kids and you want nothing else but a nice big glass of wine..by 8:30am. <\/span><\/p>\n

9:15 comes where I waddle\/limp into my OB\u2019s office for my 38 week check up. My blood pressure is higher than normal 130\/70, I\u2019m typically 110\/60. I knew after the morning I had that this would happen. This appointment is following a week of major muscular discomfort, lots of heating, couch lounging and moments of what I pray are small contractions giving me something<\/i> to report back to the home front. Cervix change, dilation, baby dropping, anything. Give me something! My doctor checks me and has NOTHING<\/i> to report as changed. I\u2019m still very much pregnant and in his words the baby is \u201cvery comfortable\u201d. Well, gee, I\u2019m glad he<\/i> is! I\u2019m used to being late, both of my boys were 4 days over my due date, so I\u2019ve had in my head that this will be another one. But still I can\u2019t help the feeling of wanting to be hopeful at this point. <\/span><\/p>\n

Doctor leaves the room. I start crying. I\u2019ve never even cried over this before, but today was just one of those days that I wanted to be done, <\/i>or at least told that I\u2019m almost done. I wanted to feel like myself again, play with my kids without needing to put my feet up 10 minutes later, or go to the pool with them by myself and not need an extra hand because I\u2019m too uncomfortable to chase my 2 year old around. It\u2019s a feeling of powerlessness because there\u2019s really nothing I can do at this point but wait. <\/span><\/p>\n

I pulled myself together. With red, glassy eyes I made it through making my next appointment, got to my car, and cried some more. Drove over to our office, sat by my husband and cried even more. Why I\u2019m even crying this much, I don\u2019t know. But I did <\/i>know that I was having a major moment and once I let myself feel it, I needed to suck it up and move on. I began thinking of the reasons why I needed to get over this and continue to live my life for the next 2 weeks without focusing on the end of the pregnancy. It was coming, just not at the moment I wanted it. So after thinking, I realized almost every pregnant woman goes through this by the end of the 9 months. Maybe not the cry in the doctors office experience, but the desperation of wanting the pregnancy to be over and finally bring their new baby into the world! So for any women out there struggling, or who will be struggling, these are my main points to keep in mind. After a good cry of course \ud83d\ude09<\/span><\/p>\n

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1. I\u2019m healthy. Baby\u2019s healthy. The fact that the doctor is not concerned about him not showing signs of wanting to come out any day now is a positive thing. We are both healthy enough to keep the pregnancy going and I\u2019m strong enough to get through it. I’m not a religious person but I always liked the saying \u201cGod only gives you what you can handle\u201d. If my body and mind were not able to handle a 40 week pregnancy, this baby would be coming out sooner. Health is and always will be the most important thing.<\/span><\/li>\n
2. The baby is not done fully developing. Even though I know the baby would be healthy and ok if born today at 38 weeks, there is still always time to cross T\u2019s and dot i\u2019s \ud83d\ude42 Every little part of the baby is developing inside the womb, so giving him this time to \u201cfinish up\u201d will only be more beneficial for him and his development post-birth.<\/span><\/li>\n
3. The longer he\u2019s in, the more time I have solo with my boys, or even doing things for myself. Life can get kind of crazy with a newborn, so now is my chance to keep my focus on my kids. If you don\u2019t have kids and this is your first pregnancy, take advantage of sleeping as much as you can right now and include \u201cpampering\u201d on your nesting list. Go do the things you love to do for yourself that may not be as easy to get to once baby arrives. I\u2019m not a mom that believes once you have kids you\u2019re done with all of the self-care, but it definitely is not the same or as easy to get to once you have a little one..or 2 or 3. <\/span><\/li>\n
4. Finally, if you ever get to this emotional breakdown point in your pregnancy, I suggest getting out with your significant other for some \u201cmommy-daddy time\u201d. It\u2019s ok to feel this way, but try not to dwell on it. Get that time together, tell him how you\u2019re feeling and then laugh about how in a month you\u2019ll be day dreaming of the nights you were getting sleep. <\/span><\/li>\n<\/ol>\n

   Yes, these are things I had to tell myself today to get over the anxiety of continuing to play the \u201cwaiting game\u201d. I\u2019m sharing my thoughts in hopes that it can help other mothers struggling at this end point to move passed the emotion and think of the \u201cbright side\u201d. And to think, in just 2 weeks I\u2019ll be talking all about life as a mom of 3 boys. Ok, maybe he can stay in a little bit longer. <\/span><\/p>\n

   -Darielle Singerman<\/span><\/p>\n

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